2015 was a really a huge year of growth for me, not only in a business sense but also a personal, emotional and spiritual sense. I've poured blood, sweat and tears into a new business all while trying to find ourselves in this crazy world, and care for our little family. A dream I had for a very long time had come to fruition. Yet... I was unhappy.
At first, the excitement of opening the store and being jammed packed from opening to close was exhilarating. But your body can only just on adrenaline for so long. The 4am start and 11pm finishes were starting to take a toll on my health and marriage. After a few months, I felt trapped. I felt lost and completely disconnected from my truth, and I had no idea who the 'real me' was anymore. The only thing I was certain of was that the happy, free-spirited gypsy soul I once had was gone.
Last year really opened my eyes to what I truly want in life and where my passion lies. I was lucky enough to build some amazingly strong relationships with customers and clients that I now call dear friends. I felt so blessed that a number of people felt confident enough with me that they were able to share their problems and seek advice. Many people I was able to help with diet changes through my naturopathy and nutrition background and it would honestly light up my whole day (despite my exhaustion)! However, I could see more and more people were feeling lost within themselves and questioning their life purpose. And to be honest, I was searching too!
I kept getting drawn to more energy healing to compliment my studies I’ve already completed with Naturopathy and Nutrition. I began to study Reiki and Mediation as more of a hobby and absolutely fell in love. It was incredibly relaxing to have something to focus on to slow my thoughts and my breathing, as running a business is extremely demanding and taxing on the body.
While I was running the store, I also looked forward to each and every cooking classes as I loved the sharing and teaching aspect. I wanted to do more, but couldn’t fit it in with the daily running of the bricks and mortar store. I was frustrated. I started to resent the daily grind, especially because I left the corporate world a few years prior because I wanted more freedom. I wanted more of what I loved. But how?
Towards to the end of the year I was picked for a TV show to pitch my business idea of turning my food business into a franchise model. When I finally made it onto the set I was so confused by my feelings - getting on a prime time TV show was meant to be the pinnacle of my business career (or so I thought). My passion for the business was no longer there, and I hadn't fully realised that yet. It was then, after speaking to these incredibly successful investors that helped me realise a business based on consumerism was not for me. But it's not an easy thing to let go of a dream you've held for so many years. I had built my self-worth around my success of the store. I had let it define me, so to cut the cord was scary and I had a bit of an identity crisis.
After some support, mentoring and more study, I started to move towards my true calling. The thing that kept popping up in my mind was helping women with their health, wellness and businesses. Ultimately this lead me to the calling of teaching & coaching. Now I'm not saying I'm a guru or proclaiming to be enlightened. But I feel my life experience, skills and passions can help others move past their road blocks and live the life of their dreams.
From all of these changes my old logo and branding just didn't reflect my personal growth, and felt it no longer reflected the true me. My life was getting simpler and wanted my branding to reflect that too. I wanted Holistic Mamma to truly reflect the lifestyle I have created for myself and be 100% authentic with my audience.
I’m sure this year will see a lot of tweaking and growth too. But I’m certainly glad you are here for the journey and I truly appreciate your love and support.
Peace, Love & Blessings,